Hi! My name Svetlana. I am tired from loneliness and have decided to write to you. I search the satellite of the life for long relations. Possible having found out about each other more we can join. I shall start to tell about myself. Im looking or a serious relationship, so please dont reply, if you arent serious as well. I want to find kind and reliable partner in life. If you want to write me I with the big pleasure shall answer your letter. You can reach me at: svetlana@maxxam.org and I will send you my picture. Earlier I did not use dating service, therefore I bring to you my apologies if I have made not so good. I hope to speak with you soon, Svetlana.Hi, my new friend,Phil! First, what I want to do - I want to apologize, that I did not answer you during long time. Please do not be angry with me. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you sooner. Please forgive me for a delay. I hope you are not offended. I hope you will write me and will not hold evil. I am very glad that you have answered my letter. Thank you that you have found time for answer. I do not know what to write to you in my first letter because I never wrote letters and did not get acquainted on the Internet before. But I think will be correct if I will start to tell about me from the very beginning because I was first, who has written first letter. I really do not know as far as my life is interesting to you, but I think, if something will be not interestingly for you, you will tell me about it. Probably I should begin my letter with the most important thing as I have not told to you about it in my first message to you. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your country. But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul. And if your interest is not limited by distance or borders, I really will be very glad. My country - Russia. Our country is located on continent - Eurasia. Russia is very big country and occupies very big area. Capital of Russia - Moscow. I was born and I live now in village Orsha. In Russia the village is a small settlement in which just a few thousand, or a few hundreds inhabitants. My village - village of city type. We have the same houses as in large Russian cities. But in comparison with the big cities, our village is considered as very small village of course. Probably if you want to have the best representation about where I live, I should tell to you that my village is located close to the big city of Tver. Very big city. Tver is located on distance of 163 kilometers from Moscow. It is very far. In the childhood I dreamed to be a ballerina or figure skater. But at conscious age my interests have changed. When I has appeared before a choice - where to receive higher education, I have understood that I want to be a doctor. I always showed big interest to scientific knowledge of this area. On this, at that time I already knew absolutely exact that I will be doctor, and I do not regret about my choice. My education consist of three steps. School - College - University. I began to get education in the comprehensive school. After I finished it I entered the medical college. I finished it with excellent results and entered the Medical University. At present I work in a small Dental polyclinic. I work as a dentist. Very interesting work though many my girlfriends disagree with me. I already spoke you that my name is Svetlana. But in Russia actually each name has some forms, for example such as - the reduced form or the diminutive-caressing form or pet name. On this also my names is - Svetochka, Sveta, Svetlana. Phil I promised to share with you my picture, I fulfil my promise with worry and with pleasure. In addition to a picture I want to tell that I am brunette. My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115 pounds. And of course you should know that I am 30 years old. My birthday - on May, 28, 1973 and I will turn 31 years old. I understand that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesnt conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course. I the optimist at heart and its frequently helps me in my life. I already adult woman, and I look at a life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I cannot do it. I have fine girlfriend, I have work and an apartment. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me its not material things, but spiritual. I have written to you the first and it means that I am ready to share with you my thoughts. I am very glad and grateful to you for that that you have answered me because I have decided to take only one chance in dialogue through e-mail. And if my letter to you would remain without your answer, I think I would not use this way second time. Anyhow, I hope that you, as well as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer. In the end of my letter I want to ask you the most banal questions. I want to ask you what music you like, what movies you prefer and have-whether favourite film. These questions are really interesting for me because I like American movies and American music very much. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job, Phil? Have you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other country? Maybe you more skilled in this plan than Im? I thank you for your answers beforehand. If you do not want to answer these questions, please do not answer. It simply my female curiosity. I will be very grateful to you also if you share with me your pictures. I thank you beforehand. I am sorry once again that I did not answer your letter for a long time. Forgive me, but I had no opportunity to take advantage of a computer. I will explain to you later - why. With the best regards. Sveta.Hi Phil! How your day? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Many thanks. At once I want to tell to you about my opportunities to write letters to you. I hadnt time to tell about it in my last letter. I write to you letters on my job because I have no a personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will sometimes allow me to use a computer in my interests, but only when this lady has a free time. It depends not on me unfortunately. I work five days in a week - from Monday till Friday. It is the standard established in Russia. On this I shall not be capable to write to you and to receive your letters on Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work on Saturday and even on Sunday. It is called - maintenance standby. In our polyclinic always works a doctor on duty who works on Saturday and on Sunday because the toothache hasnt schedules (smile). Sometimes I work as the doctor on duty. On this maybe I will can write to you letters even on Saturday or on Sunday. Maybe. Do you want to know how I will write to you my letters? I write to you letters during all my working day by small parts - in those short time intervals when the computer will not be occupied. And something else. Me have warned that our computer has dependent system of sending of mail. My letters will be sent only after service mail which is sent two times in day - at midday and after finish of the working day. Probable, my letter will be sent automatically after finish of the working day. Working day in our polyclinic comes to an end at 22.00, but my working day comes to an end at 17.00. I work in childrens branch. If you want, I can tell to you about my work. Only tell. How you could think of me poorly? I also heard about the Russian mafia. Such women disgrace our country and though I always had pride for Russian people and women, it is a shame to me, that these women are Russian. Actually in Russia many good, fair and kind ladies. I understand what opinion now you have about Russian people. But in Russia really many good girls. Oh! I promised you to tell what music I like. Now I have some free minutes and with pleasure will spend this time to tell to you about my interests. I like various music. All depends on mood. I like to listen classical music. I like Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listen simply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest. Under such music I like to think. I like to listen to guitar masterpieces of Joe Satriani. I very much like group Dire Straits. I like Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is great group. I like Madonna, Robbie Williams and George Michael and many others. In America many great musicians. I like many Russian musicians. For example Philip Kirkorov, Valeria or groups: Chaif, Splin. But you likely do not know them. I very much like cinema. In Russia create few good films. I like works of such directors s Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun. Its masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russia use huge popularity. The American movies is considered the greatest. I very much like the American movies and I like many American actors. For example: Gladiator, Brave Heart. Mel Gibson - good actor. I like films - The Sixth Sense, the Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest, Gone with the Wind, Magnificent Seven, the Godfather, Groundhog day, The Scent of a Woman. My favourite actors - Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, Demi Moore, Kevin Spacey. My hobby, if its possible to tell so - the English language. I have loved English long ago, when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I have entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it. I very much like your language. After school, I continued studying of English language at the university. I like this language. It is a very soft and easily-memorized language. I learn the English anguage easily. At present I attend courses of the English language. I study your language within 18 years. I want to know this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you wont angry. What else to tell about me? I never was married and I havent children. I am lonely and the reason of my loneliness not only in me. However, I do not know if it interestingly for you. I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I am optimist and I like to smile, because smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine irrespective of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face. I should finish my letter. You have the big family Phil? If you do not want, you may do not answer my question. I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards. Sveta.Hi Phil! I am frankly glad that again I have a possibility to write you. I very much love music too and I can really play on a violin. Certainly I not the professional, but I like to play for myself when I have lyrical mood. Tell, you love a violin? About my pictures. Certainly I did not make it on the digital camera. Digital camera have only special studios. It is expensive for Russia. I have taken all photos several months ago. To me has suggested my familiar to scan my photos. He worked in Tver in any small firm, but now he has left to live to Voronezh. His sick father there lives and he has left to help him. Now I have no access to the scanner, unfortunately. Today I saw my mother in my dream and thought that I have to tell you about my mother, because when I say about her - I tell about my family. It is really so because I have never seen my grandfather and grandmother and I dont have brothers or sisters. I was the only one child in the family, and my family consisted of two people - my mother and I. I know nothing about the father. When to me there were 16 years ours the neighbour started to live from my mum. I named his uncle Sasha. All was good, but then he has left from mum to other woman and has moved to other city. I too do not want to recollect him now. Now you will understand why. I really feel great proud when I say about my mother because she was a very good woman. But together with this, every time the recollections about my mother cause tears and I cant keep them. My mother died when I was 19 years old. Two years before her death my mom has damage in road accident. She was standing in the street and she was knocked down by a car. Probably the driver was strongly drunk, because the witnesses said that the car moved by zigzag and suddenly appeared on pavement. As a result of collision my mum was paralysed. She spent three years in the wheelchair. I looked after her did all that was in my forces to make a life for which she was fated since this moment - easy and joyful. I spent little time with my friends and practically all my free time I spent near my mother. I was crazy happy when mother smiled, because she smiled very seldom. She was ashamed of her helplessness. Every time when I was going home after school I looked at the window and every time my mother met me. She was looking through the window and smiled. It happens always. She met me every day and never forgot. Thats why I felt alarm at once when 11 years ago I looked at the window and didnt see my mother there. I understood that something is wrong. I rushed home with tears in my eyes. When I oped the door I understood that I stayed alone. As usual my mother was sitting in her chair with the smile. But she was dead. I remember how I stretched my arm and touched her pulse. It got dark in my eyes and my feet didnt obey me. I couldnt stand. I thought I would go mad. I have felt that I lose consciousness and lain on the floor. I sobed and couldnt quiet down. I couldnt imagine that I will live without mom. This was the person I lived for. All I did in my live I did for her. She was such a good mother. She taught me everything I can do in this life. My mother dreamt to bring me up as an honest and decent lady. I was the only child and mother gave me endless love. And I tried to do all to be worthy daughter, to be worthy her love. And I hope that I became such a lady as my mother wanted to see me. Now I appreciate the difficulties of that time in a different way. Difficulties train the character. I lived without help and support, I went through different difficulties about which I dont want to speak. But I have gone trough these difficulties and remember this I feel that everything I have done correctly. My mother always told me that one should look at difficulties with smile not mentioning that there is a shout of despair in the throat and there are tears in eyes. One should be strong and proud - as my mother was. Forgive me that I have told you about this so in detail. But I say about my mother seldom. But when I say about her I cant do it in couple words. I loved her very much and thats why I told you little things about her. Forgive me. I decided to share my recollections with you as with a friend, because I didnt speak about her with anybody for a long time. Forgive me that my letter is a sad, big and uninteresting. Simply when I begin to say about my mother I cant stop. But I promise not to write such letters anymore. Is important For you the nationality of the person if this person - object of your sympathy? What makes you happy? I have to finish. Sincerely with best regards. Sveta. P.S. On it photo o me 17 years old. Hi, Phil! Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldnt have time to get your letter. And I have to say that this frightened me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. Thats why today I will try not to write about sad things. Then now I am smiling and have a good mood. As a matter of fact today all the colleagues have a good mood because today we found out that on Monday The Moscow Zoo would come to Tver for touring. This is great news because The Moscow Zoo Is the biggest zoo in the country. So everybody discuss only this news. Everybody wants to visit the ZOO because the tour will last only for several days. I like animals very much and I have never seen Moscow Zoo. I have never seen alive tigers and bears. Have you ever seen a tiger or a bear? The biggest animal I saw in my life is a horse. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets - a cat or a dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me at home alone I feel pity. Thats why I dont have pets. I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. Thats why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. eekends I spend differently. Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something to do about the house on weekends. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I dont like to read western or detectives, though lately I read stories about Sherlock Holmes with pleasure. Also I like to spend time with my girl-friends. I have two best girl-friends. We are friends for 20 years. When we meet with girl-friends the air is filling with laughter. We like to walk and communicate, we go to movie and to the park. If you want I can tell you about my girl-friends. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. In Russia camping is very popular. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In August the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful. I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest, river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like cooking. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well dont have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the mans heart. May be she is right. I like Russian dishes and my favourite dish is hodgepodge ( in Russian we call it okroshka). I am not sure if you know such dish. This is a Russian national dish. Also I like dishes of Caucasian Georgia. What dishes do you prefer Phil? I have a question for you. If you do not want can not answer. Looking back at your life would you like to change something? I have to finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting. I will wait for your letter with impatience. I wish you peace and kindness. Sveta.Hi, my dear friend Phil! I hope you not against if I say so. Thank you for your attention to me. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letters. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. I should say that when I have good mood my patients cry less (smile). So healthy smiles of our children now depend on your letters (smile again). You ask, as I have chosen you. I did not choose you from thousand men. I have no an opportunity frequently and long to use the Internet. I never used the Internet earlier. For this reason my girlfriend has helped me. She has told that if I will choose from all men, I will spend all day long in computer, but I will choose nobody. She has suggested to choose in the casual page. I even dont know what page she has chosen. And I have chosen you on this page. My girlfriend has told, that if I really want to find the dream, I should not read thousand lines. The destiny itself will direct my hand. I have written the letter only to you and I am very glad, that you answered me. I even could not present where it will bring me. I had relations with the guy a little more than year back. He was very rough, constantly shouted at me and was very jealous. I made nothing, that he had insult on me, but always to him it seemed, that I change, but it was not the truth. Moreover, he to drink many of alcohol also and became even more malicious. I was afraid of him when he was drunk. I do not want to recollect him now. He has caused me much sufferings. I do not want, that it has repeated with other guy. I see, that you another and I like it. Also I want to tell to you frankly about sex. Really I do have not enough sex. I the alive person, but I cannot have sex with the person whom I do not love. I want caress and words of love ONLY from the favourite person. Probably to you to not understand it, but women are different it from men. You can be disagree with me? By the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 30 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend. By the way, she works with me in the polyclinic. As matter of fact I have only two real friends - Elena and Natasha. Elena is that lady who is in the hospital. Natasha has left to the North for three months. Her grandmother lives there. My friends are not married too. We are friends for 20 years already. Elena and I are like sisters. Elena and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I dont know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the second world war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which dont have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Elena vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because in winter the prices of these products rise very high. Every winter Elena and I make a big Snowman by big snow balls. We make a carrot instead of nose and potatos instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbors children come to see it. First time we made such a Snowman 16 years ago. Since that time we do every year. This is a tradition for us. We pour it with water to cover with ice. So it stands for the whole winter. I like Orsha. Many people in our village know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 4 floors. Elena says that she wants to live in a big city. I dont know where it is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I dont want to tell about sad things. Did I tell you that I can play violin? I like to play violin. One famous musician said that a woman and a violin are created the friend for the friend. I agree with it. I play on a violin when on my soul it is bad when it is good also. The violin helps me in my loneliness. I play on a violin in my home every evening almost. I compose music a little even. You love play on a violin? I have to finish my letter. I dont want but I have to. Today when I will come to Elena we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you that you do Phil when on your soul poorly or well? What was the best gift you got and from whom? Sincerely yours and with best wishes. Sveta. P.S. By the way, I asked the girl who sits on a computer to find for me a map of our district. She has found to me it, but on it is written in Russian. She has marked a red circle a place where I live. I hope you want to know where I am? I send it to you. Hi Phil! The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The sun is shining all the day. It is impossible to open eyes because the snow blinds of the whiteness on the sun. And what about your weather? May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. As a matter of fact I dont want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I dont mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my flat is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as my blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I dont know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I dont want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it. I began writing the letter in the morning. Now it is 5 p. m. already. You want to know why I have chosen you? I spoke you already, that it was a casual choice. I have given a choice to destiny. Now I do not regret about it. Tell to me you trust in destiny? You trust in love at first sight? You really want to know about the Russian men? Certainly they not all alcoholics and are rough also. There are good men in Russia, but I am disappointed already with the Russian men. I heard, that in America are men care of women and love them really and consequently I have decided to write to you. I was helped in it by my girlfriend. It was her idea. Today I again shall go to Elena when I shall write to you the letter. I hope she is better today. Yesterday she was very glad, when I have come and have wished her happy birthday. We ate a pie and talked. By the way, about you also. I told to her about you. You are not offended on me for it? She asked to tell to you Hi from her. I talked with doctor and he has told, that nothing terrible with Elena and she will soon recover. I am very glad to this. Can you imagine? I have just cured a little boys teeth. I asked him: What do you dream about? He answered that he dreams to become a grownup because grownups dont have problems with teeth. It was so funny. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups dont have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we cant to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than isappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me? I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? What clothes do you like the lady wear? I will wait for your letter with impatience. Sveta. P.S. In a picture I wait for the bus. We with Elena have gone to congratulate our girlfriend Natasha happy birthday. It was on October, 21. Natasha is 31 year. Hi my friend, Phil!!!! I am very glad that you have written. Many thanks. You have again raised my mood and have placed a happy smile on my face. My girlfriend has helped me to find all copies of my and your letters. I am very glad to this. Please do not worry about it. I shall never hold my letters only on one diskette. Now I shall be cleverer I shall hold all our letters on three diskettes at once. Yesterday I have visited Elena in hospital. I have told to her Hi from you, I hope you not against it? Elena also has send Hi for you. By the way, she has told, that her quinsy has recovered already and tomorrow her will let off from hospital. I am very glad, that her health in norm now. By the way Phil, today I went to job being absolutely confident that you write to me today. Earlier I always went with an thought that you probably yet have not written, but today for the first time I went with an thought that your letter waits for me already. I went on the street and I smiled. I could not hide my smile. People which passed near to me looked back on me. Ladies in Russia smile rarely, because life is filled with different problems, cares, difficulties and obstacles. All this prevails over little fortunes which the lady has in her life. In Russia the lady stands on the same stair as the man already for a long time. She can do the same work as the man can. Very often In Russia the lady does the mans work - the heavy physical work. In the 19th century one Russian poet wrote about Russian woman: "Russian woman can enter in the burning house and she can stop frightened horse running towards her". The only thing she lacks is simple warm and caress, which she wants to receive from a man. This is the problem of Russian men. The Russian lady does everything for the man but doesnt get anything from him. All what she needs is at least a couple of tender words and gentle touching of his hands. Is it really so difficult? Is it really difficult to present your lady a romantic evening and a supper with candles? In Russia as a rule such gift give lady for a man, but not a man for lady. When a woman carry heavy bags in the street no man will help her, he will only turn his look away and go farther. Thats why the Russian lady never feels happy at her heart. You say that I am beautiful. In Russia I am not considered like a beautiful lady. Russian men, practically all of them, usually treat to ladies disrespectfully. They consider that woman only have to work, to cook, to wash cloths and entertain the man when he wants. For the Russian man it is a usual thing to offend a woman. I like to cook and to wash cloths but sometimes I would like to receive simple caress, love and attention. I dont want to offend all the men. Of course there are good men in Russia, but there are few of them. Men frequently speak dirty words (not normative lexicon) when speak with lady and consider that in it there is nothing bad. I had boyfriend. We had good time together. He was kind. But he liked to drink. When he got drunk he became an absolutely other person. He talked with me with bad and dirty words. The time passed and his love to alcohol became a habit. He became another person - rude and evil. Has taken a great interest in beating me, frequently struck and knocked me by hands and the next day he smiled and talked with me as if nothing had happened. I began to be afraid of him and I have left him. My soul was wounded very much. After this I couldnt make myself get acquainted with another man. Now I dont trust Russian men. I am afraid to give my love but get in lieu thereof the roughness. If you have disagreements with lady, you can apply roughness? Do you capable to transform quarrel into the peace, pleasure and a smile? Your Sveta. P.S. I attach a photo with Elena. I love this photo very much. I hope to you this photo also is pleasant. Hi, Phil! How your mood? I hope that up to my letter your mood was fine, but after my letter your mood became superfine (smile) Likely I too self-confident. But I am happy again because I have again received your letter. I so waited this minute, when I can write to you. You probably are surprised, that I write to you to Saturday. Today I work the on duty doctor in clinic. Be not surprised, doctors should work always because patients do not wait the end of week-end. (smile) In our clinic all doctors work so by turns. I have a lot of work, but I have all the same decided to write to you. On Friday in clinic was small holiday. On March, 8 in Russia celebrate the International Womens day, in Russia it will be the day off and consequently in our clinic we celebrated this holiday on Friday. You heard about such holiday? All men in our clinic congratulated women on it, have bought pies, sweets and champagne. We were congratulated in an official part by the head physician, my chief, and spoke many good words about us. I like our collective on clinic, it is small but very amicable and we always celebrate holidays together after work. And this time we celebrated till 6:15 P.M. then all have gone home, but for me, as well as for all women of our clinic, it was very pleasant congratulations of men of clinic. In the USA there is such holiday when men congratulate women? Tomorrow difficult day waits for me. Tomorrow I again work in dental mobile car. I did not say it to you yet. But it happens only once a week. Dental mobile car - automobile which is more than passenger car, but is less than a lorry. Two years ago I and Elena have written to Ministry of Health the offer to allocate the automobile to make dental mobile car. At that time we with her have consisted in society of volunteer help weak and ailing people. As a rule it is old lonely people which are not capable to live without help of extraneous people. These people could not visit hospital because they could not go independently. We have suggested to come periodically to such people on this automobile with the necessary equipment to not carry these people in hospital. This offer was approved and now we already visit more than fifty settlements in our area. Unfortunately tomorrow I will go without Elena. On this it will be difficult days. In total in our area five such automobiles. We go in small villages and settlements where live people, which for the different reasons cannot go in city to cure a teeth. In our district a lot of such people. Now we help not only to such people, but also children living in childrens orphanages. We have many orphanages, but this orphanages have no personal dental cabinet, on this every week Elena, I and ours colleague - dental surgeon, we go in various orphanages on dental mobile car. We became friends with all children and all children love us very much, because also we visit this orphanage in the days off to give help of various sort. The state allocates very few money for the maintenance and contents of orphanages. Buildings are very old. But children do not have anybody to help them and to give them financial support. Thats why some people voluntary render the feasible help. We help to repair rooms. Many walls do not have even wall-paper and stucco. The floors and beds are very old. The conditions are terrible. The meal is awful. The children practically have no toys. When I look at all this there are tears in my eyes. My girlfriend and I help to do repair. We glue wall-paper and paint the windows. We bring children new toys. You cannot imagine how children are pleased when we come. And they are glad not only because they wait for new toys, they wait for us. They require kindness and caress very much. Again I write too in detail. Forgive me, please. Oh Phil! I should go. Sincerely and with the best regards. Your Sveta.Hi, my far, but dear friend Phil. I again write to you and I thank the destiny for I have found you. It is valid happiness for me. It was pleasant to me very much that you also well think of orphanages. It is the most good your characteristic for me. To you are not indifferent destinies of other people. Certainly, if you will arrive we together we can help these wretch people. I should tell to you that I have ocean of emotions and sensations which I had no in my heart before. And on this, my reason and my heart say me that I should answer by sincerity your constant sincerity. My heart and my reason says me that I should tell what I feel now because it is a part of our friendship and I should share it with you. I should tell that it was required two days to write and think over this letter, because I wanted to say just the right things to you. I didnt want to offend or upset you in anyway, and it really bothered me that saying something wrong may do that. I normally speak directly from my heart, and I am right now, but sometimes, words must be carefully chosen. I feel somewhat lost when I have no opportunity to use a computer to read your letter. In my soul, I feel contentment and joy when I think of you. I have never done this in my life, (tried to initiate a relationship halfway across the world), and I might have much to learn about how to proceed, but I am more than willing to learn whatever it takes to succeed if that is your desire as well. I also believe that couples should be the best friends possible, which trust and share with each other everything that they feel. I do not know if my word and thoughts make sense to you, and I try very hard to put them in typed words that you will feel and understand. I believe in God, and I believe that I have been put through trials to prepare me for meeting a man with whom I will spend the rest of my life loving, to better appreciate him, respect him and cherish the love, that he would give; only asking that I return the same. I hope that my words and letters are not boring to you, but they are much more than mere words, they are my thoughts and feelings, and I send them out to you. I very much desire that you find it in your heart and are comfortable with sharing your personal feelings with me, I wish to know you on a more intimate level, I would like you to share your dreams, your hopes, your feelings of the heart with me, I truly wish to connect with you on a level that goes way beyond mere friendship. Please do not think me foolish for thinking these things, I believe that in order for anything to succeed, you have to be honest, and that is what I am doing with you. Could you lose your eyes for just a minute, and think and dream of what a life we could share, what it would be like, the fun of learning each other. I really believe that dreams do come true for people which dare to believe in dreams, because if they believe in them hard enough, dreams could become in reality. I guess that you are shocked that I feel this way, but here, where I was raised, the gift of true love from a man is something that is more similar to a Mirage or self-deception, rather than mutual feeling which two enamored people can give each other. I hope that I am not rambling on with my words. I have so much that I wish to share with you, and each time I write to you, I feel there is never enough time to say everything that I want to say, and I always feel that I have forgotten something important that I wanted to share with you. Phil, when I speak of you and I think of you, it does not matter for me what anyone else thinks. I want to tell that you are very beautiful for me. I mean, I find that you are not only attractive as a man, I also speak of the beauty that is within you, beauty of your internal world, and alas, this particular type of beauty is very special and rare. Most men have only appearances, but not have beauty inside, and this is where true beauty is. This, is that for me is the most important and significant in all limits of my character, my soul and my consciousness. Your words spoken to me with so much kindness and care, they express the beauty within you. I think that you are truly handsome, the essence of what beauty should be, and there is nothing that anyone could say to me that would compel to change my mind even a little bit. I want to reduce essence of all my letter only to one thought. I do not know if I could clearly explain all my thoughts and feelings, which overflow me now, or not. I want to tell that I feel, we become very good friends and I really enjoy our friendship. I aspire to learn you more and I dare to hope that you suppose a thought that our relations can develop more than it enough for simple friendship. It is that way which I feel. As always I hope that my letter finds you in good health and spirits, and I hope that every yours wish you have comes true one day. I will look forward to your reply as always with anticipation and impatience.... With tenderness, Sveta.Hi my Phil! How your mood? Any your mood today I want to try to make even better. This morning I didnt go to my job, because this morning I flew to my job. Today I came to my job beforehand. And I was first who came to the office. And I was happy all the day. My colleagues were surprised. They have asked me why Im so happy. And I have simply answered that I have good mood. I have understood long ago but was afraid to admit to itself, that I have found to you feeling which did not feel before. I want to understand what in my heart. I want to feel your breath. I dont know, whats happened with me. Likely I can be named strange lady, but I have grown fond of your soul and heart. The rest is not important for me. For me the material world is not important. Only the world of calmness, fidelity and pure heart. It didnt happen to me before. The weather is sunny today. The sun brings joy. Im glad that I have friend Phil, and Phil has me, Sveta. Tell me about your thoughts and dreams. I want to know all about you. Absolutely all!(smile). BUT! Yesterday my boss informed me that I will have a vacation approximately in 2 or 3 weeks. But I have not been pleased. I did not expect that I will receive a vacation. But schedule constituted by accounts department not change. I have begun to cry, because it means that I cannot write to you. I cannot use a computer. Then I have found out that lady which gives me to use her computer, maybe will receive a vacation right after me, and if it will take place I can not use a computer two months. I have imagined that I should spend my vacation in my apartment, between four walls. I will sit without an opportunity to read your letters, I will sit in loneliness and to think of you. I will aimlessly wander on streets and every night fall asleep with tears on eyes. I waited my vacation the whole year and now I receive them but it do not bring to me pleasure. I have imagined that I should spend some months without you and in my heart has appeared awful emptiness. All world around became uninteresting for me. And I have told to myself: "NO! It not for me!" Last night I thought of us. About you and about me. About us together. I couldnt fall asleep. I thought what I can do to see you. I decided to spend this vacation with you. I thought what can I do to meet you. Simply to meet. Its all that I want now. I have a passport, but I dont a visa to your country. Today I have addressed visas agency. I wondered how much it will cost for me to make American visa. They old me that consideration of the application on reception of the visa costs 100 dollars. This sum does not come back even in that case if my application will not be approved. And for getting a visa is necessary to go to Moscow where there is an American consulate. They have told that I will must visit set of various departments, state and medical institutions both in Tver, and in Moscow. It is necessary to wait for a long time the queue. It is a usual way of getting a visa and procedure of reception can be delayed for some weeks or even months. Besides if my application will not be approved, it will turn out that I squander money all for nothing. I said I cant wait so long. To me have told that is possible to avoid set of problems and to make all in faster terms if to use full package of service (FPS). Full package of service includes additional payments for a category of the visa, consular services, preparation for Interview with commission, interview. The full package of service costs 235 dollars, but the visas agency remove all problems and thus increases the chance of getting a visa without excessive delays. I asked how long time it will take to get a visa If to use a full package of service. They have answered that it will take about one week. Maybe 2 weeks if there will be some troubles. I have told that this variant satisfies me and I agree. I have asked, whether there will be troubles with visa, because there were the terrible terrorist actions in USA and the conflict with Iraq. I was answered that they will request information about me in the police. And if in the police they will be answered that I the law-abiding citizen, I will get the visa. I have never outraged the law. And I have never done anything unlawful. I will have preparation for interview. It will help me to receive the visa. And I really have registered the visa application with great belief and with great hope that you will be glad to meet me, with belief and with hope that you want to meet me. I really want to give you a gift - our meeting though I am not sure if you really want to meet me. Can you imagine that if everything will be well, in two weeks we can meet? If it would happen, would be i as a gift for you? Would be you happy if we could spend some days together? I understand that our relations are not long yet. Many years I ask myself one question: "Why everything depends on money?" I think that the money is not main thing in life. The main is when the people can and want to understand each other. I have a wild desire to meet you, to embrace you. I have some savings. I do not want to cause you a monetary outlay. I will make all myself. I know that you id not expect that I will tell all this. But it is possible to wait eternally. But in fact nobody knows that waits for us tomorrow. Maybe such opportunity will not be presented any more. I have opened to you my heart and soul. I speak what I feel. I am not confused by my feelings. I speak straight and openly. The loneliness has made me courageous. You can think that I hurry events. But I have found new feeling which never had. I am happy right now. I seem I has found what searched for long time. In Russia speak: "under a lying stone the water doesnt flow ". It mean that it is necessary to do a step onward to achieve something. I am afraid to lose an opportunity to communicate with you because I cannot eternally use office computer. But I will receive soon a vacation. During all my life I spent my vacation in my village. But now I can spend my vacation with my friend, with you! It is big happiness. I should use this opportunity. In my heart never was such confidence and feeling. And I am afraid to lose it. May be I hurry events, but I am afraid that all will be terminated, and then I will go mad. You my dear friend, and friends meet sometimes. I shall receive a vacation, its my vacation and I want to spend it with my dear friend. I think it will be wonderful. I apologize, if have offended you. I hope, that you do not regard my words as impudence. I simply want to meet and spend some happy days with you. What will be after, I do not know. But all people meet. The distance does not frighten me. But without a meeting there can not be a continuation. I hope, that your feelings to me have not changed after that. But I want to see you to slightly becalm my tormented heart. Tell me please, can you meet me? Tell me please, you will be glad to meet me? You will be glad if I will arrive to you? I believe and I hope that I have not angered and have not offended you. I believe and I hope that you have feelings to me. I believe and I hope that you want to meet me. It can be outlined in advance by destiny. I sincerely hope that my letter has brought pleasure to you. And I sincerely hope that you want to meet me to spend some time together. And I sincerely hope that you would be happy to meet me. Would you be happy? Much tenderness from Sveta!!!Hi my soul Phil! You make me happy more and more when I receive from you letters. I am really very glad to this. You do not forget me. It is very a pity, that I cannot read these every day. I am very glad, that you want my arrival to you. I also want to spend time of my vacation together with you. We shall spend together days and nights. It is fine. I already start to represent our meeting, our embraces and the first kiss. Now I with impatience shall wait my vacation on work and to make the visa. These are pleasant efforts for me. I shall arrive during my vacation during one or two weeks. Certainly this small time for us, but it is better than simple correspondence on the Internet. (Smile) I think, that you want our fast meeting as well as I. For me it will be valid to visit you very pleasantly. It will be my first step for our real acquaintance and a meeting. I hope you also will be happy to see me? I would like, that you showed me vicinities and sights. Also would like to go with you on the nature, only together on camping. I really dream about it. As we shall sit with you together at night near a fire, to embrace, talk and certainly to kiss. You would love it? During our joint vacation we shall think of our future together. You heard about female intuition? My female intuition prompts me that between us all will be good also we shall be happy together. I do not want to guess about future is a bad sign and consequently I shall wait for our meeting only and to hope for the best. I shall ask my chief about an opportunity of putting off of my vacation. I shall inform to you in the following letter about it. I am afraid that it will not turn out, if it will be so I shall be glad to carry spend with you even a little days all the same. I shall study all necessary information about flight, about visa and about arrival to you in general. I shall speak you about it when I shall know. I want to describe to you my day completely, since morning and till the night. At 6:30 rattle my alarm clock. I do not love my alarm clock. ecause it so loudly rattle, that each time I jump as scalded. I rise with good mood because in dream I saw you. At 6:35 I go to a bathroom And I THINK OF YOU! I wash and I clean a teeth. At 6:45 I dress my sports suit, I go on street And I THINK OF YOU! I jog. I run in the mornings always when it is not cold to support myself in the good form. When in the street coldly, I sleep till 7:00. At 7:20 I cook a breakfast, as a rule strong tea or coffee and a sandwich. I drink tea and I THINK OF YOU! t 7:30 I go to work. Usually, if weather good, I go on foot And I THINK OF YOU! I like to go on foot since morning. Air clean and fresh. To job I come vigorous and cheerful. At 7:55 I go to a cabinet where works my girlfriend . As a rule she already on work at this time. If there is an opportunity I receive your letter. If the opportunity is not present I receive it later. At 8:00 I start to work And I THINK OF YOU! At 10:00 I go on street and I THINK OF YOU! I breathe fresh air of 10 minutes and come back to work. At 12:30 a dining break. I go home for a dinner And I THINK OF YOU! I reach up to a house by a bus. At 13:00 I eat and at 13:10 I go again for work And I THINK OF YOU! I go by a bus but I abandon a bus earlier, than it is necessary, to again take a walk on fresh air And TO THINK OF YOU! At 13:30 I again work And I THINK OF YOU! (though in my work is impossible be distracted and think about something another except for work)(smile) At 15:30 we with my employees do a small break and we drink tea for have a rest. I was not capable to drink tea because I THINK OF YOU! During the working day when there is an opportunity I answer your letter. At 17:00 I stop work and I finish to write the letter to you. At 18:00 I go home. I go on foot, slowly. I feel itself perfectly because I THINK OF YOU! t 18:40 I take a shower and I imagine that YOU WITH ME! (Smile) At 19:00 I have supper, alone, but I smile, because I imagine that YOU SIT OPPOSITE TO ME! At 20:00 I go for walk with my lady-friend (but it happens seldom). We walk in park. She thinks Where is possible to buy ice-cream, BUT I THINK OF YOU! If I do not go for walk, I listen to music, I read the book, I watch TV, I knit, I make various homework And I THINK OF YOU! (of course not all simultaneously)(smile). At 23:00 I lie down to sleep. Usually I fall asleep very quickly because I THINK OF YOU! Only do not think that all my days pass so. It is an approximate variant. Every day passes on miscellaneous. But is that peculiar to each my day: ITS MY THOUGHTS OF YOU Phil!!! Your and only your Sveta. Hi my Phil! Thanks you for attention and care of me. Today I speculate about you and about me. It so is surprising. As a matter of fact we live on the different sides of our planet, but we are so similar. I never was even outside of my country. To travel outside the seas and oceans for me in general outside a reality. I cannot imagine it as though I not tried. And always, as likely many people Never seeing anything except for native house, I console myself by thought, that you have the same blue sky and the same life. Maybe life behind ocean is more cheerful and rich, paints are brighter and the summer is warmer. But also as here, people cry when they feel a pain, people suffer when lose close people, women in torments give birth to children. It is identical everywhere. You and I have the same cares and problems. Every day I try to imagine that occurs in your heart, do you worry or not, do you think of me or not, do you imagine us or not. It is so unusual to me, and in same time I feel so conveniently as if I know you the whole eternity. And I am sure that it not accidentally. And it is not important what waits for me in the nearest future, I know that I already have found a remarkable, kind and good man and a friend. And if I will see him, if I meet him and I can look in his eyes, I can tell to him everything what I cannot tell in letters, I will be madly happy. Now, today, this minute not important, where will bring me this way. I know that it is true road. I live not by the future,- I live today, and exactly today I live by bright and happy life. I think I should change the subject. I do not want to be stodgy and tiresome. Phil. If we shall meet you would like fishing with me? Unexpected question? Simply I have written a first thought which came in my mind. I really like to fish. But I do not love winter fishing. You probably did not hear about it because you have no cold winter. The American women love fishing? Earlier I fished frequently with Elena . Maybe for you it sounds unusually. I never used true fishing rod. I simply took the long stick and fastened fishing tackle with the float to a stick. Phil, what you shout when the fish seized a worm? Russian hout: "PECKS!!!! " It is my favourite moment in fishing. If a fish for a long time doesnt peck, I lose interest. I treat this occupation not so seriously like a men. If the fish long does not peck, I lose patience. But when pecks well, I have big passion. When I pull out from water a fish on a hook, I laugh and I shout with pleasure, as though me tickle. Are you ticklish? I very ticklish and if I am afflicted or have bad mood, titillation - the most reliable way to force me laugh loudly up to tears. I think you should know it though I should tell that if you will tickle me, I will resist, I will kick you and I will pinch you with wild laughter of course (smile). If your beloved lady would love rare flowers which are not sold in shop, you would search for these flowers to present to her or you would buy other flowers, beautiful too but not her favourite? I should finish. Your Sveta.Hi my lion Phil! I understand you cannot meet me after March, 27 and till April, 18, but I can arrive to you after April, 18? Correctly? You will not be busy after this date? Or it is necessary for me to arrive to you only since March, 21 up to 27? Today I asked my chief about my vacation. He could not tell to me exact date of my vacation. He has told, that my vacation depend on work, but he promised, that it will be in the beginning of the next month precisely. I shall inform to you about dates when I shall know precisely. Yesterday, on Sunday, I went to vote on presidential elections of Russia. For me it was very surprising, presidential elections were as a holiday. Music everywhere played, and all people were in good mood around. I have voted for Putin. I think, Putin the good president. I am very glad, that he has winning at elections. Putin have voted 70 percent of Russians. It is very good. I believe him and I think he will lift Russia from an economic crisis. Probably you want to ask a question why I named you Lion? Now every day and every night you - in my apartment. You do not understand? OK I will explain. I have the big soft toy. Its the big lion with a long tail and with dense mane. This lion is so charming. Its only one toy I have and I love my lion very much. Elena always asked me:"What is his name?" I constantly thought what name to give to him, but could not to think up. Elena offered many names, but any name was not pleasant to me. I do not know why. But yesterday when I went to bed as usually I have put my lion near to me. I looked at him and think of you. And I have told - Good Night Phil! And at this moment I have understood that I have found the best name for my lion. This name - Phil! I was so glad. This name so combined with my lion! Now he always near to me. I look at him and I think of you. It so is amusing. Today I have told about it Elena. We laughed long time. She has told: " It is good that your toy - a lion. If your toy would be an ostrich or the elephant, hardly you would give to such toy the name Phil! " It was very cheerful. By the way, to write this letter I has put many efforts. Do you want to know why? Anyhow I will tell to you. Today I for the first time was late on job. I always wake up when my alarm clock calls. But today I did not hear an alarm clock, probably because in sleep I saw you Phil. I woke up with a smile on the face. But when I have looked at hours, I began to laugh very loudly, because I never slept so long time in the morning. Usually I wake up at 6:30. In job I must arrive in 8:00. But today I have woken up at 8:20. I was quickly dressed and had not breakfast at all, because my boss does not like when workers are late for work. I very much hurried up. I ran very quickly along the street, and when I already came nearer to my clinic, I have stumbled and have fallen. Can you imagine it? I lay in the middle of street like a starfish, people go near to me, but nobody has helped me to get up. And I have thought, that you Phil necessarily would help me. I strongly injured a knee and a hand. When I have come in job, limping and scraggly, Elena has asked me:"Whats happened?" And I said:"I saw in the dream Phil!" It was so funny. I must tell that in my profession my hands always should be in an ideal condition. My hands should not shiver and feel a pain or any inconveniences because any my careless movement can cause many troubles for the patient, is especially if it is small children. Today I served boy and in my hand there was pain, but I never was mistaken and everything have made ideally. Now I feel pain in leg and in hand, but I write to you the letter and I smile. I am afraid that if I will dream of you frequently, I will be compelled to lie in hospital or in fracture clinic (smile). Phil, if some lady flirted with you but you were married, how would you respond to this lady? I should finish. Your Sveta.Hi my Phil! Today I went to agency and asked about promotion of my documents on the visa. To me informed there, I should pass the special commission for reception of the visa. It is the most difficult stage in reception of the visa. Now I worry about it a little and I shall prepare for this commission. I have already handed over some tests and analyses already. I hope that all will be good with the visa nevertheless. I am so glad that I all the same have had an opportunity to write to you the letter. Today at 15 oclock I filled cavities to the boy. During this moment all electric illumination suddenly was switched off. Completely in all a building have disconnected the electric power. Our pediatric cabinet practically has no natural illumination. On this our cabinet became very dark. The boy has been very much frightened, because I have prepared cavity but I have not finished to fill cavities. A boy was 13 years old, on this he did not cry. He simply said that he does not want to go home with the big hole in a tooth and again to go here tomorrow. I have decided to finish to fill cavities. I have addressed to a supply manager and he has brought the small flash-light which worked with battery. Elena has helped me. She held a flash-light and directed light in the boys face. I have filled cavities. The boss has let off home all workers because was informed that there are problems with electric wires and the problem will be eliminated not soon. But I have decided to remain and wait. I thought that if a problem will be removed earlier, I can write to you the letter. And I was not mistaken. Several minutes ago an electricity was included again. By the way, Elena has remained to wait for result with me. She worried as well as I. When the repairman tried to correct malfunction, I every minute asked him: " When you will finish? Soon or not?" And when his nerves were on a limit, he has shouted: " If you will not shut up, small problem can turn to catastrophe (smile). I am glad that i could write. I send you my hot kisses. Elena sends you Big HELLO! With all tenderness. Sveta.Hi my Phil! I write to you the letter and I smile. I am so glad. All time I think of you and I can not concentrate my attention to something else. I never thought that the commission will ask such unusual questions. hey asked about my sexual life, they asked about children, about work, about patriotism, about my attitude to America, about my conversance and awareness of events which happened in the world and in America, about my religion and belief. I have told about all my life in detail. I spoke about everything fairly how it is really. To me have told that my answers are unexpected and as a rule applicants do not answer such questions so directly and openly. They have not got used to hear such answers, but they said that to hear sincere and truthful answers is much more plea
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