First of all I want to apologize, that I did not answered you for a long time. Please do not be angry with me. Unfortunately I had no opportunity to write to you sooner. Please forgive me for a delay. I hope you are not offended. I hope you will write me and will not hold evil. I am very glad that you have answered my letter. Thank you that you have found time for answer. I do not know what to write to you in my first letter because I never wrote letters and did not get acquainted on the Internet before. But I think will be correct if I will start to tell about me from the very beginning because I was first, who has written first letter. I really do not know as far as my life is interesting to you, but I think, if something will be not interestingly for you, you will tell me about it. Probably I should begin my letter with the most important thing as I have not told to you about it in my first message to you. Probably you will be very much afflicted when you find out that I live not in your state(country). But I very much hope that it does not frighten you, because I the same lady like many other ladies living in the different countries. I the same person with heart and soul. And if your interest is not limited by distance or borders, I really will be very glad. My country is Russia. Our country is located on continent named Eurasia. Russia is very big state(country) and occupies very big area. Capital of Russia is Moscow. I was born and I live now in village(little town) Panino. In Russia the village is a small settlement in which just a few thousand, or a few hundreds inhabitants. My village is village of town type. We have the same houses as in large Russian cities. But in comparison with the big cities, our village is considered as very small village of course. Probably if you want to have the best representation about where I live, I should tell to you that my village is located close to the big city named Woronezh. Its our regional center. Very big city. Woronezh is located on distance of 550 kilometers from Moscow. In the childhood I dreamed to be a ballerina or figure skater. But at conscious age my interests have changed. When I has appeared before a choice- where to receive higher education, I have understood that I want to be a economist(bookkeeper). I always showed big interest to knowledge of this area. On this, at that time I already knew absolutely exact that I will be bookkeeper, and I do not regret about my choice. My education consist of three steps. School - College - University. I began to get education in the comprehensive school. After I finished it I entered the college. I finished it with excellent results and entered the University. At this time I work in small building company. I work as a bookkeeper. Very interesting work though many my girlfriends disagree with me. I already spoke you that my name is Natalya. But in Russia actually each name has some forms, for example such as - the reduced form or the diminutive-caressing form or pet name. On this also my names is - Natasha. Victor I promised to share with you my picture, I fulfil my promise with worry and with pleasure. In addition to a picture I want to tell that I am blonde. My height is 5 feet 6 inches. My weight is 115 pounds. And of course you should know that I am 25 years old. My birthday - on March, 23, 1979 I understand that all people have various tastes and interests, but I sincerely hope that my picture and my appearance will be pleasant for you. But if my appearance doesnt conform to your tastes and interests, I will understand you, of course. I the optimist at heart and its frequently helps me in my life. I already adult woman, and I look at a life with a philosophical shade. But as though I did not try to inspire myself that I absolutely happy woman, I cannot do it. I have good friends, I have work and an apartment. But there are things without which people cannot be happy. And for me its not material things, but spiritual. I have written to you the first and it means that I am ready to share with you my thoughts. I am very glad and grateful to you for that that you have answered me because I have decided to take only one chance in dialogue through e-mail. And if my letter to you would remain without your answer, I think I would not use this way second time. Anyhow, I hope that you, as well as I, have interest in our dialogue, and I will wait your answer. In the end of my letter I want to ask you the most banal questions. I want to ask you what music you like, what movies you prefer and have-whether favourite movie. These questions are really interesting for me because I like American movies and American music very much. I with pleasure will tell to you about it in my next letter if you really want to learn more about me. Do you like your job, Victor? Have you ever had experience in correspondence with a friend from other country? Maybe you more skilled in this plan than Im? I thank you for your answers beforehand. If you do not want to answer these questions, please do not answer. It simply my female curiosity. I will be very grateful to you also if you share with me your pictures. I thank you beforehand. I am sorry once again that I did not answer your letter for a long time. Forgive me, but I had no opportunity to take advantage of a computer. I will explain to you later - why. With the best regards. Natalya.Hi Victor! This is again Natalya! How your day was? I hope you are glad to receive my letter because when I have received your letter I really was delighted. Many thanks. I hadnt time to tell about it in my last letter. I write to you letters on my job because I have no a personal computer. The computer is in an accounting department. Lady who works with a computer will sometimes allow me to use a computer in my interests, but only when this lady has a free time. It depends not on me unfortunately. I work five days in a week - from Monday till Friday. It is the standard established in Russia. Therefore I will be not capable to write to you and to receive your letters on Saturday and on Sunday. But sometimes I work on Saturday and even on Sunday. It is called maintenance standby. On this maybe I will can write to you letters even on Saturday or on Sunday. Maybe. Do you want to know how I will write to you my letters? I write to you letters during all my working day by small parts - in those short time intervals when the computer will not be occupied. And something else. I have been warned that our computer has dependent system of sending of mail. My letters will be sent only after service mail which is sent two times in day - at midday and after finish of the working day. Probable, my letter will be sent automatically after finish of the working day. Working day in our company comes to an end at 22.00, but my working day comes to an end at 17.00. Oh! I promised you to tell what music I like. Now I have some free minutes and with pleasure will spend this time to tell to you about my interests. I like various music. All depends on mood. I like to listen classical music. I like Dunaevski And Chajkovsky. I like to listen simply instrumental music. Such music allows to relax and have a rest. With such music I like to reflect. I like to listen to guitar masterpieces of Joe Satriani. I very much like group Dire Straits. I like Pink Floyd. They are not similar to anybody. It is great group. I like Madonna, Robbie Williams and George Michael and many others. In America many great musicians. I like many Russian musicians. For example Philip Kirkorov, Valeria or groups: Chaif, Splin. But you probably do not know them. I very much like cinema. In Russia create few good movies. I like works of such directors as Tarkovsky, Konchalovsky, Mikhalkov. My favourite movies - Siberian Barber and Tired by the Sun. Its masterpieces of the Russian cinema. The American movies in Russia use huge popularity. The American movies is considered the greatest. I very much like the American movies and I like many merican actors. I like movies such as The Sixth Sense, the Rainman, One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest, Gone with the Wind, Magnificent Seven, the Godfather, Groundhog day, The Scent of a Woman. My favourite actors are Russel Crow, Mel Gibson Bruce Willis, Al Pacino, Kevin Costner, Samuel L. Jackson, Julia Roberts, Tom Hanks, Demi Moore, Kevin Spacey. My hobby is the English language(if its possible to tell so). I have loved English long ago, when I studied at school. In Russia the program of training necessarily includes foreign language, as a rule - English, German or French. I have entered in group of the English language and I am happy that I made it. I very much like your language. After school, I continued studying of English language at the university. I like this language. It is a very soft and easily-memorized language. I learn the English language easily. At present I attend courses of the English language. I study your language within 14 years. I want to know this language perfectly. I know that now I admit mistakes, but I hope you wont angry. What else to tell about me? I never was married and I havent children. I am lonely and the reason of my loneliness not only in me. However, I do not know if it interestingly for you. I live honestly, and it brings pleasure to me. I am optimist and I like to smile, because a smile - mirror of soul. For happiness is not required many things. Likely the main thing that does not suffice me now is love. People without love cannot be happy. But when near there is a close person whom you love, life becomes fine irrespective of where you live and what you have. But the loneliness fills a life with sadness. But I do not want to speak about sadness anymore. I am glad that I have an opportunity to write to you and I am glad that you write to me. And at present it really causes a smile on my face. Do you have the big family? I should finish my letter. Thank you for a beautiful picture. I loved it. I hope to receive your letter soon. Sincerely and with the best regards. Natalya.Hi Victor! I am frankly glad that again I have a possibility to write you. Today I saw my mother in my dream and thought that I have to tell you about my mother, because when I say about her - I tell about my family. It is really so because I have never seen my grandfather and grandmother and I dont have brothers or sisters. I was the only one child in the family, and my family consisted of two people - my mother and I. I really feel great proud when I say about my mother because she was a very good woman. But together with this, every time the recollections about my mother cause tears and I cant keep them. My mother died when I was 16 years old. Three years before her death my mom has damage in road accident. She was standing in the street and she was knocked down by a car. Probably the driver was strongly drunk, because the witnesses said that the car moved by zigzag and suddenly appeared on pavement. As a result of collision my mum was paralysed. She spent three years in the wheelchair. I looked after her did all that was in my forces to make a life for which she was fated since this moment - easy and joyful. I spent little time with my friends and practically all my free time I spent near my mother. I was crazy happy when mother smiled, because she smiled very seldom. She was ashamed of her helplessness. Every time when I was going home after school I looked at the window and every time my mother met me. She was looking through the window and smiled. It happens always. She met me every day and never forgot. Thats why I felt alarm at once when 9 years ago I looked at the window and didnt see my mother there. I understood that something is wrong. I rushed home with tears in my eyes. When I oped the door I understood that I stayed alone. As usual my mother was sitting in her chair. But she was dead. I remember how I stretched my arm and touched her pulse. It got dark in my eyes and my feet didnt obey me. I couldnt stand. I thought I would go mad. I have felt that I lose consciousness and lain on the floor. I sobbed and couldnt quiet down. I couldnt imagine that I will live without mom. This was the person I lived for. All I did in my live I did for her. She was such a good mother. She taught me everything I can do in this life. My mother dreamt to bring me up as an honest and decent lady. I was the only child and mother gave me endless love. And I tried to do all to be worthy daughter, to be worthy her love. And I hope that I became such a lady as my mother wanted to see me. Now I appreciate the difficulties of that time in a different way. Difficulties train the character. I lived without help and support, I went through different difficulties about which I dont want to speak. But I have gone through these difficulties and remember this I feel that everything I have done correctly. My mother always told me that one should look at difficulties with smile not mentioning that there is a shout of despair in the throat and there are tears in eyes. One should be strong and proud - as my mother was. Forgive me that I have told you about this so in detail. But I say about my mother seldom. But when I say about her I cant do it in couple words. I loved her very much and thats why I told you little things about her. Forgive me. I decided to share my recollections with you as with a friend, because I didnt speak about her with anybody for a long time. Forgive me that my letter is a sad, big and uninteresting. Simply when I begin to say about my mother I cant stop. But I promise not to write such sad letters anymore. I am going to move to America, to marry. I not against if you visit me. If I be shall visit you, you will not be against? Thanks for new beautiful picture. Like any person I have dreams, small and big. But when I reflect seriously, I understand that in effect I dream to create my family. I dream to feel loved and necessary. I dream to find the world of kindness and tenderness. I dream to receive as a token of love - a stars in the sky, crimson sundown, and dew on a fragrant grass. Probably its too much. I have to finish. Sincerely with best regards. Natalya.Hi, Victor (English) Privet, Victor (Russian) Today I had so much work that I was afraid that I wouldnt have time to get your letter. And I have to say that this frightened me. But now I have found free time and very glad. Thank you for your kind letter. My last letter was sad. Thats why today I will try not to write about sad things. Then now I am smiling and have a good mood. As a matter of fact today all the colleagues have a good mood because today we found out that On Wednesday The Moscow Zoo would come to Woronezh for touring. This is a great news because The Moscow Zoo Is the biggest zoo in the country. So everybody discuss only this news. Everybody wants to visit the ZOO because the tour will last only for several days. I like animals very much and I have never seen Moscow Zoo. I like horses very much and think that these are the most beautiful animals in the planet. As matter of fact I have always dreamt to have some pets - a cat or a dog. But when I think that a little puppy will wait for me at home alone I feel pity. Thats why I dont have pets. I always wait for weekends with impatience, because I get tired mentally and physically at the work. Thats why weekends are the only possibility for me to rest and to get new forces. Weekends I spend differently. Sometimes I want simply to rest in my apartment. I like my apartment - little and cosy. On weekends I always clean the apartment properly. I like purity. And though I always try to keep my apartment clean, there is always something to do about the house on weekends. But when I want really to relax I listen to music or read books. I like to read books especially historical novels about ancient Russia or other countries. I like to spend time in nature in the open air very much. The camping is very popular in Russia. I adore to go to the forest and to live in a tent though now I have seldom such an opportunity. I like to look at night fire. I like to look at the stars very much. In August the sky is strewed with stars. It is incredible beautiful. I like to cook on the fire. There is no more wonderful when in the air the fragrances of forest, river and smoke mix together. I am romantic undoubtedly. I really like cooking. I know that I do it well, because I started cooking from childhood. My mother taught me many things including cooking. She said: "Lady who can cook well dont have disadvantages and demerits, because tasty food is a way to the mans heart. May be she is right. I like Russian dishes and my favourite dish is hodgepodge ( in Russian we call it okroshka). I am not sure if you know such dish. This is a Russian national dish. What dishes do you prefer Victor? I do not smoke. I drink alcohol very little. I probably shall soon visit you. You will not be against? You ask why I write to you. First - the distance is not important for me. I do not think of it. I think that for true feelings there are no barrier and distances. Likely you want to know why I do not search for destiny in Russia. I have collided the big cruelty and disrespect. There is one very weighty circumstance because of which I have no the friend here, and do not want. The young and beautiful guy has acted with me very much cruelty. I am not ready to tell about it yet. It is difficult and hurt for me. Can be later. But I can tell that first I could not find to myself the friend in Russia, and now I do not want. I do not believe Russian guys. I cannot go to travel across Russia in searches of prince. But I have decided to try to find my destiny through the Internet. Unless it is bad? America - the Great country. Relations of our countries at present good. I well enough know the English language. On this I write to you. If it is not comprehensible to you tell me please, because for me it not a joke. I also could write to other country. But English-speaking countries not so many. America the most familiar country for me. Looking back at your life would you like to change something? I have to finish. I hope my letter was not stodgy and uninteresting. I will wait for your letter with impatience. I wish you peace and kindness. Natalya. P.S This picture was made on Black sea.Hi, my dear friend Victor! I hope you not against if I say so. Thank you for your letter. From day to day I feel more necessity to get your letter. My mood has become better again when I have got your letter. By the way, when I came to work today my mood was bad, because my girl-friend fell ill and now she is in the hospital. The saddest thing is that she has birthday today. She is 26 years old today. Unfortunately she will spend her birthday in the hospital. But have already talked with the doctor and I will be allowed to spend the evening in the her chamber. In the evening I will bake a cake, buy balloons and go to the hospital. I want very much that she have good mood on her birthday. This my best friend.I have only one real girlfriend - Victoria. Victoria is that lady who is in the hospital. We are friends for 20 years already. Victoria and I are like sisters.Victoria and I like to walk. Usually we walk in the park. But also we like to spend time in Victoria vegetable garden. She lives in an old wooden house. I dont know if you have seen such houses. This are the houses which were built before the secondworld war, in the fortieth years. These are very old houses which dont have bath and running water. So people have to take water outside in the well or in a pit. In modern world such conditions seem very terrible, but this is really so. We like to spend time in Victoria vegetable garden. There she grows potato, tomatos and cucumbers not to buy them in the market, because in winter the prices of these products rise very high. Every winter Victoria and I make a big Snowman by big snow balls. We make a carrot instead of nose and potatos instead of eyes. It is very funny. All neighbors children come to see it. First time we made such a Snowman 16 years ago. Since that time we do every year. This is a tradition for us. We pour it with water to cover with ice. So it stands for the whole winter. I like Panino(my village). Many people in our village know each other. We have little buildings - maximum 4 floors. Victoria says that she wants to live in a big city. I dont know where it is better. Big city is a big traffic, fast rhythm of life, garlands of fires, lightning shop windows, high buildings, fountains, cinemas, parks, attractions, theatres. It is wonderful, of course I like it. But our village is a fresh air, a lot of trees and birds, silent and comfort no hubris and vanity inherent for big cities. We have a lot of small and large lakes and rivers. The places are very beautiful. If there were no criminal the place could be considered as a paradise. But alas, the criminal in small cities, as well as in the big cities is an integral part our life. Unfortunately criminal in Russia is situated on a very high level. But I dont want to tell about sad things. Did I tell you that I can play guitar? I like to play guitar and to sing songs. One famous musician aid that a woman with a guitar looks as absurdly as a woman with a paddle. But I dont agree with him. Several times Victoria and I went to the festival of bard song. This is a place on the coast of the river where a lot of people come from all the country. At night the coast is covered by thousand lights from fires. Huge raft having the form of a guitar is established right on water and everybody who desires sing songs together with famous bard singers. This is a unique festival. I have to finish my letter. I dont want but I have to. Today when I will come to Victoria to hospital, we will speak about you. She likes to ask about you and I like to tell her. I wanted to ask you what makes you happy Victor? What was the best gift from a woman you got? This picture is made at Victoria house 2 years ago. I have no visa but I am going to doit. Sincerely yours and with best wishes. Natalya.Hi Victor! The day is wonderful today and the weather is good. The sun is shining all the day. To add to all this I have got your letter and my happiness doesnt have limits. And what about your weather? May be today after work I will go home by foot. I like to walk along the street and to breath fresh air, especially when the weather is warm. As a matter of fact I dont want to go home. It is very boring and lonely at home. Sometimes I dont mention it, but sometimes when I come home with good mood, I want to talk very much, to share thoughts with anybody, to have fun. But my apartment is empty and I have to be in full solitude. And my good mood disappears. I simply sit down in an arm-chair and look at the window. And when the silence deafen me when I hear as My blood flows in my veins, I hear movement of my eyelashes, at that moment becomes unbearably and my heart compresses. I dont know how to struggle with it. I can listen to music or read a book. But in some moment I understand that I just deceive myself. In fact I want a beloved person to be near me, with whom I could spend evenings, to meet morning, to speak about yesterday and to dream about tomorrow day. I want to walk and to feel a strong man arm holds me. I dont want to cook meals only for myself. I want somebody to appreciate it. But enough about it. I often remember childhood. I always dreamed to become a grown up as soon as possible. As every child I completely believed that grownups dont have problems at all. I dreamt in the childhood and I dream now. Of course, the world of dreams is an illusive world. We live in a real life, so we cant to sink into the world of dreams and phantasies for long. When a dream becomes obsession, it can bring only pain and disappointment. Practically dreams do not always realize. It happens that you use all power, all aspiration to make the dream come true. But as much you try, not all in this life depend on us. When the dream for a long time does not come true, as though you did not try, dream ceases to be that star, which was for you lighthouse in ocean of the life, which illuminated your way. But anyway, I think that it is impossible to live without dreames and hopes. When there is a dream, the life is filled with sense. The dreams are those things that do us people that distinguishes us from the whole rest alive world. The dreams contribute variety in ordinary and grey life. The dreams force to think, analyse, choose and come to a conclusion. The Faith and Hope - an eternal satellites of our lifes. And regardless of what waits you at the end, joy of the victories and subordinated tops we remember better, than disappointment and pain of the defeats. You agree with me?I am surprised that I write you all this. I have never had a person, with whom I could share my thoughts. But now I have found you, and I am very glad. Forgive me for my frankness. If I said something superfluous forgive me please. Do you like when your friends come to your home? I will wait for your letter with impatience. Natalya.